I always have been.
you probably already knew that.
I worry about everything.
I worry about small things.
I tend to over analyze and get ahead of myself. I used to worry (to the point of it was all i could think about) when/if D was ever going to tell his parents about me/meet them. It was all of like 2 months into our relationship and I was already worried about it.
I literally over analyzed that situation in my head that I would make myself sick and get myself thinking that maybe he didn't really care for me since I hadn't met his parents.
I started worrying about what we were going to do for Thanksgiving and Christmas (since my family lives out of town) in like September.....
that is crazy.
When i was driving home from work on thursday I realize that my worrying has advanced to anxiety.
The entire 40 minute drive I had knots in my stomach worrying about getting all my stuff ready, forgetting something I wanted to wear, who was going to drive, how much money i could spend, how much i should drink if by chance I would have to drive. I was so anxious about all this stuff that my excitement was drained and the worry over the evening took over my brain.
that is ridiculous.
I get anxious driving on the highway, in the rain...in the dark.
the thought of driving in the rain, actually makes my muscles tighten my my tummy turns.
just thinking about it.
I get nervous a lot about things, daily. I should have more confidence in myself and not worry so much. I need to relax and stop thinking about things that months and months away. Even more, I need to stop worrying about things that I have zero control over.
but it is almost impossible.
Does anyone else worry as much as this?
about things that are so out or their control, or things that are way in the future?